I'm one of those people that suffers greatly from decision paralysis. So when I go to a library or bookstore and there are so many books I get very overwhelmed and have no idea what I'm doing. So when I started working on my goal of utilizing the library more (especially the digital catalog) I turned to my very neglected Goodreads account. To try to get some organization going. And since I was already there I might as well do the reading challenge.


Since it is almost the end of the year, and I have exceeded my reading goal I thought I would do a rec list.
Everything I've read (or reread) this year that I rated 4 or 5 stars.
( Under a Cut because there's a lot of them. )
If you wanna be friends on Goodreads you can find me here. And if you have any questions about books mentioned on this post or that I have shelved on Goodreads don't hesitate to ask!

So. This week was a pretty busy week for me. Sat-Tues I had work. It's the busy season for my job but I was still able to finish 4 books! Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda & Leah on the Offbeat by Becky Albertalli and Warcross & Wildcard by Marie Lu. I have lots of feeling about them which I'm not going to clutter this post with but if anyone is interested in talking about them I can make a post (or 2) later.
Yesterday would have normally been a hang out on the internet day for me. But it was the first session of a new Pathfinder campaign. And, normally the dm that's doing this campaign hosts at his house so I didn't realize my husband and I were hosting. So I spent the early part of the day cleaning up. It was a fun first session though! Memorable too. Although, that's mostly because we rolled so poorly all night. We almost got killed by skeletons, and then again by a blizzard, and then again by some kobolds. None of those things should have been enough kill us. It was embarrassing for our characters how much they sucked at doing anything.
I'm also online slightly less than I normally am because I'm playing through Final Fantasy 10 for the first time. I really wanted to play a video game, and I bought FFXV because it's beautiful, but it was very overwhelming as someone who's only played 1 game from start to finish. So, I nixed that and I got FFX because I knew it was turn based and not and open world. I hate Blitzball and think there should be more save spheres, but overall I'm having fun.
So. That's pretty much what I'm doing with life right now. And on tumblr, or twitter, or any other social media I probably would have made that into a few separate posts because I like to compartmentalize. But the average post rate here seems much lower, and I didn't want to clog anyone's feed by making a bunch of posts in a row. But, if they were all separate posts I would be going into more detail about everything. So, lovely people that have subscribed to me. Would you prefer in the future short vague posts like this, and then starting a convo about anything you want more information about, or would you prefer I just do longer more specific posts from the jump?

questionoftheday asks: Have you ever experienced daja-vous? If so, how often do you experience it? Do you know why you experience it?

My answer: I experienced Deja Vu exactly once. I walked into the kitchen at my grandmothers house and she was doing the dishes, she turned to say hello to me and the plate that she was holding slipped from her hand and shattered on the floor. The entire scene felt like I was remembering just before it happened. I knew she was going to drop the plate right before she did. Like I had seen it in a dream. I was 6, so I was pretty sure I was psychic. Alas, I am not. It never happened again.

questionoftheday asks: Do you ever have a recurring dream? What is it and what do you think it means?

My answer: (whoops, I was trying to enter in the tags while I thought of my answer and hit the enter button and the whole thing posted. so sorry if you saw the empty answer version.)
A few years ago I used to have recurring dreams about being at a party in my apartment and one of my ex boyfriends from high school showing up as a plus 1 for a friend of mine. And I spend the whole dream trying to avoid my ex without offending the friend that brought him to the party. In real life these 2 people have never met, and I have never known my ex to be in the city I live in now. So, it's probably just a general anxiety about awkward social situations dream with the face that my brain knows will hit me the hardest?
Now I don't throw parties anymore so I don't really have that dream, and the closest thing I get to a recurring dream is that anytime I go to the mall in my dreams it's always the same dream mall. Which probably means that I like shopping, and I like the familiar.

I thought that a thing I could do here is make daily(/weekly?) posts about some of the npc's I've made for campaigns I created. And I thought the perfect starting point would be the first character I created for the first campaign I ever ran.
It was a World Wide Wrestling campaign, and the show we were playing was called Modern Gladiators Combat Wrestling. The drama that we opened the campaign with is that the owner and founder of MGCW Bruce Rivers (Old Man Rivers) died suddenly 3 months ago but for some reason legal red tape delayed the will reading until just last week (kayfabe) when it was read during a live airing episode of MGCW (kayfabe). During that live reading it was revealed that instead of leaving the company to the General Manager (and Presumed Heir) Heath "the Hunk" Jones Bruce left the company (and everything else) to his tv star grandson. Enter Bryce Rivers.

Bryce Rivers is the son of Brian "the Brain" Rivers (a wrestler who died tragically before his time) and Judi Darke (a washed up soap star). He began acting when he was young earning a role as the main characters younger brother on a show about teen witches. Most fans however would recognize him as 1 of the 2 leads of the hit tv show A.I.P.O. (Agency Investigating Paranormal Occurances.) About federal agents going under cover in high schools to solve supernatural crimes. Fans of A.I.P.O. are still reeling after his character's death during the season finale that aired 3 weeks ago.

The fun part of playing World Wide Wrestling is that you get to play the characters as who they are behind the scenes and who they are kayfabe (and you get to decide what parts of their character are both). So
Kayfabe:
Bryce Rivers is late if he even bothers to show up
When he does show up he doesn't show much interest/emotion to the things happening in front of him unless they are directed to him
He's out every night drinking and partying
He's very promiscuous
His reputation in Hollywood is that he's an unreliable diva
He's never been in a wrestling ring before
He has no respect for the wrestlers on his roster
Safety is less important than ratings
He's willing to do anything to maintain control of the show (even after saying that he would allow it to run without his interference)

Behind the scenes:
He's been training for years to wrestle because he always knew he wanted to be a part of the business
He has very little control in the day to day running of the business
The Hollywood rumors are very recent and were actually a ploy by his publicist to build up his heel persona before his character reveal in MGCW

Both:
He's small for a wrestler (cruiserweight)
He dresses like Harry Styles at a photoshoot
He's openly bisexual (The season/campaign ended with the reveal that he had been dating Heath the Hunk's son Chip the entire time)